slashxmistress | I guess I'm just destined to be depressing :(

My dad finally lost his battle with Inclusion body myositis yesterday. He has struggled with it for years and we have watched him getting weaker and weaker. For the past year he was unable to walk and he gradually lost his ability to talk or even feed himself- in the end he was fed through a stomach tube and it was getting harder and harder to breathe. He spent a week in ICU on a respirator and though he did get back to breathing on his own , it was then that he and the family decided to sign a no resuscitation order and let him go when his lungs failed him again.

His life has been mostly pain and isolation for at least the past year and I am happy to know that he is free and painless now - but he was my daddy and and damn but I miss him already.

On another note - any of you guys out there who have anxiety problems have any experience taking Buspar/Buspirone? My Dr.put me on it(added to Paxil) but I swear I feel like it's making it worse - and I have been taking it long enough for the therapeutic effect (3 months now)